just random..

One day I'd wish time would stand still, so I have more time to spend with my american friends,  and the next moment I wish time would go by fast, so I can see all my german friends as soon as possible.

It's crazy how fast time flew by. Just 10 month ago I was super excited and curious and looking forward to this year. Now it's over and yes, sometimes I wish i would've done things differently, but over all I'm happy with all the experiences I made.

In only 10 month I realized so much about life, about my life: Who I can always rely on, who never really cared, I learned to appreciate the things I've got, instead of  always wanting more and more.

Now that I look back it's crazy to see how friendships slowly built up, and now it's like I'm leaving my new best friends behind.

It hasn't only been 10 months in my life. It's been a whole life in 10 months.

And now it's only 2 more weeks until my parents are finally coming here and I kinda feel like I felt before I left home:

18. Juli 2011 - Die Zeit läuft
Jetzt ist es nur noch 1 Monat hin, bis ich ins Flugzeug steige. Im Moment ist das alles ganz komisch. Ich muss mir langsam Gedanken machen, was ich mitnehm' und was hier bleiben muss. Und dann immer dieses 'ich will dich nochmal sehn, bevor du fliegst!'. Jedes mal gibts Heulattacken bei meinen Liebsten. Eigentlich KANN garnichts mehr raus.

I gotta think about what I'll leave here, what I'll bring and what to ship eventually. I have so much stuff, I don't even know where to keep it all..

And now everybody's like: "So, you're excited to go home?" 

..and then theres my answer: "Well, of course! But it's gonna be hard to leave."

I don't know, it hasn't hit me yet, that everything is gonna be over soon.

Ok, I feel like I'm making this more dramatic than it actually is, but writing about it helps me realize how close farewell is..

And this time I don't know if I see everybody again next year. Or the year after that, because people are leaving for college..

But good thing that there's skype :)

And I already have a deal going on, if someone sends me american candy, I'll send them german candy! :)

Friday is graduation of all the seniors, they have their last day tomorrow.

Saturday is my dance recital, where all dances from this year will be performed. 

And after that we'll go up north for Ellens Cousins Graduation Party.

Sunday we'll see a practice from a jet ski race which is this summer.

Uhm, well and then theres another week. And my last weekend which I'll probably mostly spend with Emily :) ..and lets see what else will happen. :)

Sorry, I had to write this in english, cause it's just way easier for me to express myself in english than in german haha :)

And if someone need translation, just message me or something. :)

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9 1/2 months ago @ HH Airport